That's interesting....

[switch842]

A friend of mine got some tarot cards over the weekend. She was inspired by another friend of hers that LOVES going to psychics and stuff and, well, it's just a HUGE waste of money. So, she decided to get a deck of cards and would do reading whenever her other friend wanted.

I've never really put much stock into any of those types of "mystical" things in so far as they can tell the future or whatever, and I think psychics are some of the biggest bullshitters out there. Sorry to anyone who believes that, but I just don't. At all. If you want to go for purely entertainment reasons, have at it. But if you truly believe a complete stranger can tell you your future, I just don't know....

But tarot cards have always been intriguing to me. Again, not so much as they can tell the future, but maybe help you focus on certain areas of your life and all that kind of stuff. So, we went out for lunch today (our boss, too) and played around with the deck. She told me to look through the book of different layouts to see what I wanted to know. The first layout I opened to was "What Am I Doing With My Life." And that was it. Cos I have no idea... LOL

So, confession time before we continue: a couple months ago, I submitted myself to Random Acts when they put out an announcement that they were looking for more vidders. And they, for some reason, decided they liked me. So, I've been working for Random Acts for the last couple months and have gotten and "completed" my first two assignments. I say "completed" because I'm still waiting on feedback *ahem* on them and what I may need to fix/change/etc.

And now we get back to the tarot cards. The reading that came out was basically that I need to get over myself and let my creativity out and everything will be great. This is definitely along the lines of what I've been sort of thinking myself. Like all creative people, I'm often much more critical of my work than others are. And a lot of the time I've been thinking that any minute now they're going to realize what a hack I am and "fire" me cos I just suck so much. But I need to stop thinking that, realize that they accepted me for a reason and it's gonna be fantastic.

So, yeah. That's what's been going on.

Comments

[or-mabinogi.livejournal.com]

I'm right there with you in knowing that tarot cannot predict the future. But they are fun to play with. I own 3 different sets myself: a traditional set, one based on Druidic tree lore and the Ogham script, and another based on an obscure Celtic Book of the Dead. (They're always "obscure", right?) When I first started playing with them many, many years ago, my mom was a little worried about it. Basically I explained that I never thought of them as a fortune-telling device, but more as a was of looking at a situation that you may not have thought of.

I remember doing a presentation on them in a college class and finished up by doing a reading for our teacher. He was asking about the band he's in and its possible direction. The reading came up with a lot of facing some problems before a major change would take place and its journey could begin. The next week we learned the teacher had been let go from the band and then they went on a tour. Coincidences can be freaky sometimes. :-)

[switch842.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I think they can help you focus and maybe bring to light some aspect or way of looking at a situation that maybe you hadn't thought of.

That is really freaky!! What did he have to say about it?

[daniel-shadow.livejournal.com]

Hun, like I said to you when you got the gig with Random Acts, you are a great vidder that is why they chose you. No questions about it. They want the best, they got the best.

[switch842.livejournal.com]

Well, thanks, hon. :-)

[epicycles.livejournal.com]

Huh, I just got a set of tarot cards as a present the other day, after not thinking about them for years. Coincidence! (They're Art Nouveau, I LOVE THEM)

I used to read tarot in college. I agree that it's not psychic, but it really is a good way to get to know yourself. It makes you think about your goals for the future and the shape of your life in the present. It's kind of like flipping a coin -- you figure out which option you really wanted based on your reaction to the flip. (At least that's how I do it.)

[switch842.livejournal.com]

You figure out which option you really wanted based on your reaction to the flip.

Yes! This exactly. It's not that the coin is telling you what to do, it's just "forcing" you to make the choice that you really wanted to make anyway.

I'm not sure what the cards my friend has are, but they were really pretty.

[hsapiens.livejournal.com]

Ha! I think everybody I know is working for RA in one capacity or another. I know nothing about the choice of vidders but I'd assume they didn't take everyone who applied and so this means they selected you. I look forward to seeing what you produce!

[switch842.livejournal.com]

I think it's a really great organization and I feel very honored to have been chosen to be part of the team.

Deep (deep, deep, deep) down, I know that. Logically. But, I still sometimes have a hard time believing (emotionally) that I am "worthy" to be in the same company as some of these other vidders. I've seen some of the fanvids these folks have done and they're just soooooooooooo amazing that I don't even know what I'm doing being associated with them.

But, this was the point of today. I am good enough. I just need to really believe in myself and in what I'm doing. It might take awhile, but I'm working on it... ;-)

[gateruner.livejournal.com]

I've never put much stock in Tarot or Psychics or anything like that. You get out of it what WANT. By nature, you are going to find what you want out of any situation.

At the same time, I am also a believer of destiny, fate, or whatever you want to call it. Are things predetermined for me? No, that's not what I mean. But I do believe that we all achieve whatever goals that we are meant to achieve in our lifetime. How we get there and do it, well there are an infinite number of options and choices along the way.

Eh, maybe I didn't make any sense but there ya go...

As for the vidding thing, I applaud you! I think that is wonderful that you were chosen and it's a great honor. Stop being so hard on yourself! :P

[switch842.livejournal.com]

By nature, you are going to find what you want out of any situation.

Oh, for sure. It's like epicycles said, the flip of the coin isn't going to make your choice for you, but it's going to make you think about the choices more concretely.

I get what you're saying. I don't think I'm totally sold on the idea of fate or whatever. Simply because there are so many choices. Like, I think about how my life might be different if I want to a different school. Would it? Not a lot of my life now has much to do with the college I attended. So, I dunno. *shrug* One of life's many mysteries we will never understand.

[hsapiens.livejournal.com]

(I'm not get my comment notifications. Grrrrr.)

Oh boy do I know that core feeling of not being worthy, especially when it's about an artistic expression. I feel your issue here, I truly do. Accepting that you're more than good enough to be in that company is hard. It's a paradigm shift, almost.

I have faith that you'll make that leap. CONGRATS! *throws confetti* [insert line about it being a parade! here]

[switch842.livejournal.com]

:-D

Why do I not have that gif?? I could have sworn I did... :-( This one will have to do, I guess.